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Will this affect us? The thing that I have been avoiding all this 3 years - job performance review. It's not that I want to know how have I been doing cz I know what should I be rated, it's the process that we have to go through to fight for ourselves like mad.

Is recognition really really that important? I just want to stay low. This year, would need to fight for the team, no choice as people seems to put a lot of faith and competition on each of us to fight.

But it seems like it is drifting away, slowly tearing the team spirit on this, I rather just put a stop on this. I seriously can see this will be a start to create more unnecessary issues, unpleasant ones. I will fight if it won't cause any of those negative things to happen.

I seriously don't like the feeling.

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I think something did triggered me last time to have this choice disorder~named it myself.

Don't know what or when or how but I am still afraid of making choices, giving answers, especially not knowing what the choice that you have made will lead you to, or how it will even affect you or others. As the higher you're at, the more responsibilities laid on your shoulders, the more decisions laid on your hands, tick tock tick tock waiting for you to decide own and other's outcome.

Don't like this feeling. What if you made others life worse. Feel the insecure... =(

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Gloomy Sunday.

Suddenly I find no purpose in life. Eat, work, sleep. Routine things. No other things? Sad case. My friend was like telling me, don't we have other friends? Erm I don't know. My Social network is like this small, showing her the handful sign. 

Wanted to pass for my exam but I'm not studying. Study to fail or fail to study? Nowadays that piece of paper worth a lot. Maybe? What's after passing the paper? Question marks

Find targets and start achieving. 

To travel overseas at least twice a year with the money earned.

To buy a car since my car is gonna be my brother's soon.

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Seems like only when I have no mood, I would do a post huh? True.. If I have the mood, I wouldn't have sit here and do this. Instead, I would have done something else.

Ahhh right... it's all about work huh.. OK I set aside my job on Saturday and that's it. All about me time. Brunchie with friend, gym with friend...

Total mood screwed on Tuesday. Got to message a friend of mine telling her part of the story.. Shed tears when I saw her positive response on me having the urge to just drive down to her in the evening. Can't do too obvious since I'm sitting in the middle of crowd. But ya, I forgotten that I had a meeting that day itself. So, plan abandoned. However, problem was indirectly solved before the evening, not by me. Think about it, I'm creating more problems and not solving them?? Not a thing I'm good at.. Something to ponder on.

Labour day~ Finally recalled back what I had on that day, woke up earlier, drove to Klang to have dimsum after my junior's stocktake. Woah I managed to watch series during the waiting time. Not bad.. finally some time to watch the unfinished series - Mimi. Due to the total regret of eating too much, gym right away after klang.

Friday was a day after labour day. Labour day mood still there huh? Got up late, reached office late, but went home early, to continue on work. Had a night out at The Roof. Bailed out by a friend, that made me finished the 2 pints that we had ordered, as we expected her to show up after the dinner. Nahh nevermind, at least I got a good sleep after that =P

Sleeping time~ to have early breakfast and work tomorrow.